FROM CHOICES TO BEARABLE💗🌷

Keep inspired by people surrounding you gives the rush to your adrenaline. You keen to find the real meaning of your own life. You be the priority.I started to look out for my life, my world, my view. it is not a suitable times for you to seek me when I am the one who still struggling to get out from here.It was not fair for me, as I look like a villain here. Please do things leniently. People have their path crossed differently. You would wish yours was better, but in other's view, we ourselves would never know. I would love to stop thinking from 3rd person's view. It keep tiring me out. Please cut me some slack on it, I would do the same too. when it is the times I had understood everything, I promise you to come back as better person.

SELF MANAGEMENT 😠😡😢😯😂

When I sad, I never got the answer to all my querries. When I sad and mad, I never manage to fell good inside.Later on, I realised that Allah answered at most right time. Even during the querries being answered, I still was not convinced.

It was in an evening, so suddenly I felt that was happenned because of this, this was happenned because of that. Just like that, my questions got answered. I admit, it was never easy waiting but it was worth to wait for it. You will feel a peace satisfaction towards yourself.

In the meantime, Just do whatever you can do to sooth out yourself in a good way.

People just need many reflections moment in their life. so that they will gain courage and positivity from that. Nobody was perfect and nobody is ever dying before their trying to be perfect. only that, we need to chill out and handling ourself more better regard times. self reflect as me myself pun kelaut sometimes. just do whatever you want to do but always in a good manner and never give up. Letih itu biasa, bila letih p la segar angin org kata. you yourself is your first priority before other. you cannot love others before loving yourself. that what is matter. care about your mental health, care about yourself. depression can be treated, if you give yourself chances. Peace  😊

It happen to anybody. Either it is dark moment, sad moment, miserable moment, financial problems moments, you named it. It is happen to anybody. So dont feel sad and cheer up yourself. They got level of hardness, you destroy them by twisting the plot to smile. 

Hence be proud being you and be nice.
Again, I need to remind to you that are reading this, it may sounded so narcissistic, but being a narcissist for a couple of minutes to make you feel good innerside is not wrong at all. 😉 Sending millions loves and smiles to you. WINKS too 😘

LAST WRAP

As end of year is near, 

I bet everyone would make up their mind to build new desires, motto for life..

I bet also everyone would wanted to do better next year

As I am on different phase than everyone else, 

I wanted to specially praise myself for enduring all the pain and embraces all the laugh and funs.

Things are brighter when you looks at it with the light

To find the light, you yourseld need to light it on.

As there are pains, I would not forget the joys

The joys that brought me to standing up untill today, 

The joys that keep restrain me from giving up

Thanks mother I love you so much

I dont have resolution as it is keep changing everytime

Just wanted to bear everything and face it more calmly.

• Burst are just bursting ; once you reflect upon it, it is a lesson

HANDLING SESSION 🍁

if there is one things i want to fix about myself
i want to fix my blabber mouth
i spill out almost everything when i got angry
only towards the person i loved
i knew they hurt
so am i
sorry would never do as it will happen ever again
kindness would never erase the words spilled out
if i were to hate myself
i want to hate and change myself over that
aner management session
i wanted it to be to the person i less care and stranger
to the one who deserves it ; the curses
not my beloved one

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MISSED ; ATOK ❤

Today, As I go scrolling through Facebook,
One korean movie caught me up
I even dont know the title
I watched it diligently
The story remind me a lot towards you
Grandma Gye Chun resembles you a lot
Suddenly, I remembered our old memories
How you were taking care of me when I was sick
You warm soft hand rubbed my stomachache away
I am regretting one thing
I am not regretting at the same time
I guess I am a human anyway
When you moves getting so slow,
I still cannot figured out the things that will happen
Many people tell me to be ready
I said boldly I am ready
Little did I knew you would be missed like this
I pray so that you stay in better place
Many people told me you were kind
You did a lot of good deed to be remembered
I am proud having you as my grandma in my life
I love you
I'll lead a good life
Thank you for you good advices
Rest well lovely person that sincerely love me after my mother

ANSWER ME ; MEMORIES REPLY 1988

Who are to blames when things are occuring  naturaly pass time.

We are lived in the zone where we were not figured out ourselves

if we were,  we are just a kid adult

The things you are doing now, you might cherished them a lot later

that is why, try to make memories 

friends

i was so thankful they are there when i supposedly need them

i was once rebel and a fool

not knowing what their presence meant to me

A lot of things happen, yet you just realised sooner.

We are not the one who to blames

we are not the one who are fools that times

bunch of people waits till these days to spur out this story

reminded a lot but you refused to went back

only the sweetest memories remained

Friends, kind people, and loves were so warm that it is hard to grab and hold them nowdays

while you still can strengthen and took a good care of it, why dont give it all.

thanks for making me  reminisce my history and help me cry a  river

it helped released me a lot and make me believe that things are gonna get better sooner

HATRED

i hate my life as much as i hate myself
i hate myself as much as I am not progressed
i hate myself as much as I am not happy
i hate myself for not being able to feel happy for own self
i hate myself for letting me live in a worrisome
i hate myself for the need to be worry all the time
i hate myself for the things i dont know how to react
i hate myself for disscover something too late