QUADRAPLE HARDSHIPS

People will tell lie if they said they never felt peace.  During all of my life,  happiness comes with price tag. We cannot feel too happy and we need to struggle to be happy.  Most of the time,  I felt hardships and I cried.  I am not strong enough till I mengeluh.  I tried to not to  but it seem life really did me dirty.  

On thursday morning last week,  I am not gonna remember the date.  it was a hell.  i went for a morning strolling. got back and went out to buy nasi bungkus.  after that sells my ice cream.  Park my motor in front of back door and leave ot for around two hours without neck locked. Went to kedai 2 ya and went back tiredly.  still not notice the motor.  Untill near dawn,  sister want to use motor and shockingly we realised our motor been stolen.  

I am poor.  I have got nothing left. the only one moto missing and it made us hard to move around. Mama was not feeling very well.  tommorow,  we bring mama to hospital as she got fever with shaking symptom.  she was admitted due to bacterial infections. I told her at emergency I love her.  She must know I love her even though I stiff.  

after morphine being shot,  she was stable and relax and rest.  waiting for turn to get onto ward itself is a disaster.  too many stranded people downstair and too many people.  change with sister and take turn care for mama. 

days by days getting better but discover other serious problems,  liver problems.  lungs problems and also cyst in kidney.  

life is sure so hard to live in.  Mama feeling pain after coughing and Doc just continue medicines and tell her to rest.  after 8 days addmitted with all horror stories we finally can get back home.  mama feeling happy but still sick.  

now at home continue medicines and antibiotics from hospital but she been coughing all the time.  I pitied her.  Hope she will recover soon. 

every  year July till the end of Disember always did dirty to mama.  Hope mama being protected by Allah as always.

LIFE DID ME DIRTY 😢😣

In just one day,  so many things happen.  Tgis morning I cooked mama a very simple breakfast and at 10 my sister and I went to wet market. We bought many things included Durian.  Alhamdulillah,  the durian turned out to be cheaper and sweeter.  Till next year in sha Allah.  

I went to market with motorcycle to repair the wings.  Unfortunately,  there was no sparepart and going back home thinking another day we will replace those wings.  I talked to the son and the mother.  smile happily and she surely said that i look like a high schooler student.  Feel young but not at all.  

Reach home,  there were so many guests.  The kids.  They made my mother cooked maggi.  my mother was prohibited to eat maggi then she cook when we were not home.  actually,  mama made they ate maggi.  she is the one who wanted it.  

At evening,  she started vomit while crying.  there she goes.  eating wrong could make yourlife worst.  not only yours but people surround you.  

so i was expecting guest.  i thought.  it was actually guest(s). so i kalut kemas rumah.  then suddenly i heard man's voice.  second shock.  lagi kalut than before.  mama is vomitting while me kemasing the house.  

give them location of the house which then led them somewhere i dont know.  at same time they were kids coming buying icecream.  3 things were occuring at the same time. 

then they called saying that they cant find my house.  i send the location but they cant found.  then they ask me to meet at petronas.  mama is vomitting. kids are buying.  i get ready.  then,  mama is vomitting even harder and louder.  

i cancelled my plan and called them.  the meeting is cancel and i stayed at home calming mama.  mama gastric due to her eating disorder. i hate it everytime it happen.  

sister told her off everytime.  still same things happen. i sleep due to tiredness. 

eat cheap durian we bought and settle down the day with ice cream wrapping.  tommorow  tuition classes does not trigger me anymore.