QUADRAPLE HARDSHIPS

People will tell lie if they said they never felt peace.  During all of my life,  happiness comes with price tag. We cannot feel too happy and we need to struggle to be happy.  Most of the time,  I felt hardships and I cried.  I am not strong enough till I mengeluh.  I tried to not to  but it seem life really did me dirty.  

On thursday morning last week,  I am not gonna remember the date.  it was a hell.  i went for a morning strolling. got back and went out to buy nasi bungkus.  after that sells my ice cream.  Park my motor in front of back door and leave ot for around two hours without neck locked. Went to kedai 2 ya and went back tiredly.  still not notice the motor.  Untill near dawn,  sister want to use motor and shockingly we realised our motor been stolen.  

I am poor.  I have got nothing left. the only one moto missing and it made us hard to move around. Mama was not feeling very well.  tommorow,  we bring mama to hospital as she got fever with shaking symptom.  she was admitted due to bacterial infections. I told her at emergency I love her.  She must know I love her even though I stiff.  

after morphine being shot,  she was stable and relax and rest.  waiting for turn to get onto ward itself is a disaster.  too many stranded people downstair and too many people.  change with sister and take turn care for mama. 

days by days getting better but discover other serious problems,  liver problems.  lungs problems and also cyst in kidney.  

life is sure so hard to live in.  Mama feeling pain after coughing and Doc just continue medicines and tell her to rest.  after 8 days addmitted with all horror stories we finally can get back home.  mama feeling happy but still sick.  

now at home continue medicines and antibiotics from hospital but she been coughing all the time.  I pitied her.  Hope she will recover soon. 

every  year July till the end of Disember always did dirty to mama.  Hope mama being protected by Allah as always.