LAST WRAP

As end of year is near, 

I bet everyone would make up their mind to build new desires, motto for life..

I bet also everyone would wanted to do better next year

As I am on different phase than everyone else, 

I wanted to specially praise myself for enduring all the pain and embraces all the laugh and funs.

Things are brighter when you looks at it with the light

To find the light, you yourseld need to light it on.

As there are pains, I would not forget the joys

The joys that brought me to standing up untill today, 

The joys that keep restrain me from giving up

Thanks mother I love you so much

I dont have resolution as it is keep changing everytime

Just wanted to bear everything and face it more calmly.

• Burst are just bursting ; once you reflect upon it, it is a lesson

HANDLING SESSION 🍁

if there is one things i want to fix about myself
i want to fix my blabber mouth
i spill out almost everything when i got angry
only towards the person i loved
i knew they hurt
so am i
sorry would never do as it will happen ever again
kindness would never erase the words spilled out
if i were to hate myself
i want to hate and change myself over that
aner management session
i wanted it to be to the person i less care and stranger
to the one who deserves it ; the curses
not my beloved one

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MISSED ; ATOK ❤

Today, As I go scrolling through Facebook,
One korean movie caught me up
I even dont know the title
I watched it diligently
The story remind me a lot towards you
Grandma Gye Chun resembles you a lot
Suddenly, I remembered our old memories
How you were taking care of me when I was sick
You warm soft hand rubbed my stomachache away
I am regretting one thing
I am not regretting at the same time
I guess I am a human anyway
When you moves getting so slow,
I still cannot figured out the things that will happen
Many people tell me to be ready
I said boldly I am ready
Little did I knew you would be missed like this
I pray so that you stay in better place
Many people told me you were kind
You did a lot of good deed to be remembered
I am proud having you as my grandma in my life
I love you
I'll lead a good life
Thank you for you good advices
Rest well lovely person that sincerely love me after my mother

ANSWER ME ; MEMORIES REPLY 1988

Who are to blames when things are occuring  naturaly pass time.

We are lived in the zone where we were not figured out ourselves

if we were,  we are just a kid adult

The things you are doing now, you might cherished them a lot later

that is why, try to make memories 

friends

i was so thankful they are there when i supposedly need them

i was once rebel and a fool

not knowing what their presence meant to me

A lot of things happen, yet you just realised sooner.

We are not the one who to blames

we are not the one who are fools that times

bunch of people waits till these days to spur out this story

reminded a lot but you refused to went back

only the sweetest memories remained

Friends, kind people, and loves were so warm that it is hard to grab and hold them nowdays

while you still can strengthen and took a good care of it, why dont give it all.

thanks for making me  reminisce my history and help me cry a  river

it helped released me a lot and make me believe that things are gonna get better sooner

HATRED

i hate my life as much as i hate myself
i hate myself as much as I am not progressed
i hate myself as much as I am not happy
i hate myself for not being able to feel happy for own self
i hate myself for letting me live in a worrisome
i hate myself for the need to be worry all the time
i hate myself for the things i dont know how to react
i hate myself for disscover something too late