TAKUT

 I GOT FEARS

ABUNDANT OF FEAR THAT I AM AFRAID TO FACE ON,

WISH TIME WOULD STOP AND PROBLEMS LET ME FREED,

THE ONLY THINGS THAT EXCITES ME MORE NOW IS NONE OTHER THAN FOOD AND EATING WHICH HELPLESSLY  TO BE TEMPORARY.

THE TIMES I ATE, REMINDED ME TO THAT LIFE STILL GOES ON AND WOULD NEEDED ME TO STAND UP STILL 

I HATE THIS FEELING 

KEEPING THIS FEELING FOR SUCH A LONG TIME MADE ME WANNA LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND

BUT IT WAS NOT AS EASY AS I MIGHT THINK AND I SAY.

DONT COMPARE YOUT LIFE TO OTHERS. THAT LINE IS SUPER POWERFUL TO BE APPLY INTO YOUR DAILY BASIS AND TO FEEL IT THOUGH IS ALREADY A STRUGGLE

I KNEW SOMEONE I LOOK UP FOR, HE SAID THIS YEAR DONT THINK, FEELIT.

I WISH ONLY GOOD THINGS TO HAPPEN AMIDST THIS LOCKDOWN.

THINGS WORKS FOR ME BUT MANY WERE NOT.

THINGS THAT WERE NOT GETTING ME HEADACHES AND I THING IT GAVE ME A PERMANENT FEELING

FEAR/ TAKUT.

I DONT WANNA FEELING THIS ANYMORE EVER. THIS PAIN ARE NOT BEARABLE ANYMORE THAT IT DISTURBES MY LIFE CYCLE AND HEALTH.

STRESS DO GIVE ME WEAK IMMUNE SYSTEM AND I FOUND IT HARD TO FEEL HAPPY.  COUNTLESS PAIN OVERCOME ANY SWEET AND FRUITFUL MOMENT I HAVE. 

NEVERTHELESS , I AM STILL HOPING THIS PAIN WOULD STOP AND FREED ME FOREVER.