Self Esteem

Dear self,

take care yourself more than you take care of someone elses

Yourself is one of important persona you should not overlook at. 

Once you take care this one thing, everything will be coming to your ways. 

So, you thinks it is easy to love ourself

when you are on the lacking side? 

Trust her- It is never easy but if she keep going she will make it somehow.

Before you want a freedom, you need to instill a consistency. which is the hardest things to sustain in your life. 

AT THE MOMENT

Slump

Crawling is hard.Predicting is hard.Waiting is real hard.Storm is never ending wind

NEVER COMPARE

When it comes to hardship,

people are telling you, 

everybody feels the same

when you feel troubled, 

everybody are telling you,

yeah once a time people will feel the trouble in life

All of that are happening without fail

to be part of your life.

I am tired to hear people are saying they are like me

I am tired to always put myself in other people situation

I am tired to reach their standard in order for me to be sad

I am refuse to stay in their circle

Not because of I wanted to run

 But because I want to valued myself more

'I used to think people are the same

but now, not anymore'

ALWAYS FORGIVE YOURSELF

I found it very hard to stay
Not everybody can have it
Well at least not for individuality

Rare from being open
They show what is only good
Which made me thinking

Why show only good when the world had already enough of you?
Why still doing good?

I still don't find any solution yet
But I would rather telling myself
I wont hide my dark side
I will tell the truth
At least to myself
Let's be real
Let's instill forgiveness
Forgive yourself
And do better.

Its been awhile . 

Long time no see peeps.

So Hello from Me

Things get hard lately. I bet everybody goes through it for once.

To live is never easy.

It is your full responsibility.

What's best about it, you can choose to be happy of feel devastated.

If you choose to be happy, 

Then you will take and make everything with optimist thinking.

If not, then there will be hundreds of ways for you to blame your life and fate.

Worst of it. it takes one second to see many ungrateful things in front of you.

I have been there once. I bet everybody does. 

They slowly gain courage and strength to face the world

They just got to learn about world

Which is full of confusion and hardship

One think that you can do to survive,

Is endeavor to everything.

As Allah said in Surah Al Balad Ayat; 4 

'Manusia memang diciptakan untuk berasa susah'

Not to forget janji Allah when He said,

'Dalam kesusahan mesti ada kesenangan'

It means everything to me when I am in despair.

No one could hold you up unless YOU , YOURSELF

So take a deep breath, let go everything, start new for something

Sincerely,

Yeng

RIADAH DEPAN KOMPUTER

Assalammualaikum .

Kenapa saya kata riadah depan kompeteerr ? sebab saya memang duk melangut depan skrin ni hah.Nanti bila dah tinggal umah ,jangan harap aku nak update selalu belog neh hah .Haha.Masa cuti setengah tahun ni pun lama tak bukak .hehee tapi boleh tahannla masa kat puncak alam dulu ada ugak bukan sekali dua lepas kerinduan tengah malam kat mama,siti ,azian.tak dapat cakap in person cakap on skrin pun boleh .heee.Actually tulis.yes tulis dalam skrin .Im not skyping with 'em why would i 'cakap' dengan depa on skrin .heehe,Dah tengah malam time tu ,tadak sapa nak layan aku .Haha .K laa,just to make sure belog ni hidup even tak selalu update.plus ,i dont have any secret admire to take care of.Haters tu tak tau la.I dunt even wanna care bout that .kalaupun ada ,aku tak mau ambil tahu .waste my time you know.haha.okeyy ,lastly Allah ,please give me the best among the best .please let me be your humble servant before i confront you ya Allah,please put away any bad things around me oh yaAllah .please take care of my hati ,iman n agama.please ya Allah ,take care of my family ,mama,siti azian and abah .aminn.

Tribute to my beloved mother :)

You want somebody down from the very start 

Yeah i'm with that , yeah 

and you 're never gonna  sleep with a broken heart 

cause i 'll fix that yeah 

and i dont ever want your tears to fall 

so i'll catch them in the palm of my hands for you 

Oh baby baby you ' re now under my umbrella 

Ain't no way . Know how a thing is gonna get you mama 

Cause now that I'm in the picture 

I'm always gonna stay here wit you 

To my favorite mum .Its your world 

Cause you' re with me . you 're with me , you 're with me now mum 

And now it's time to change your world 

And you can have diamonds by the plenty 

I can change your whole things up if you let me 

You ' re with now mum 2x

Yeah lucky you no .naw lucky me

cause i found you .yeah .and never i ever been so happy 

when im around you yeah 

The stars have never ever been oh so bright you are the sunshine of my life 

And mama ,this is why 

Oh baby baby you're now under my umbrella 

ain't no way .know how a  thing is gonna get you mama 

Cause i now in the picture

I'm always gonna be here with you 

To my favorite maaamaa .Its your worlds 

Cause you're with me you 're with me you 're with now mama

And now its time to change your worlds 

And you can have diamonds by the plenty 

I'mma change your whole thing u if you let me 

You 're with now mama 2x

See you can have the world and all that it bares 

And what im asking in return in you always be there 

by my side ,my ride or die

i know that i'm asking for a little too much 

But i knew the every moment i touched your hand

Oh baby baby you're now under my umbrella 

Aint no way .know how a thing is gonna get you girl 

Cause now that i'm in the picture 

Your my favourite girl ,Its your woooorrrrld .

Augustvsazrin