Study

Cut those craps saying you should learn till you die.  At the end of the days, it is just you who work you ass off to the bones to get paid of to live. So just do whatever you wanted to do. Even if I cant, I hope someone else can fulfill their dream.

I want to sleep under a shady cloud with a cool windy breeze slapping my face,

staring at shining night sky full of illimunated star, 

throwing snow with my bare hands, 

walking all the way without sweating, 

eating at pit stop, 

see people around the world, 

handshake with people i adored.

Bringing a smile towards my mothers face,

Living carelessly for 3 days a week. 

Ungrateful Bicth

Covered myself with embroidery orange blanket, 

will never put me at ease. 

Surrounded myself with various people,

not always making me happy and excited.

Immersed myself into a new hobby,

get me tired of it so soon.

Wear new clothes every month, 

does not hold my smile that long.

Eat delicious food sometimes, 

does not necessarily give me excitement

Having money today,

does not guarantee your old days in the future.

Looking healthy now, 

does not determine your condition now or later.

Stay

I am too comfortable to move on

I am too exhausted with world

I am too annoyed with people

I am too lacking for competition

I am too weak for waking up

I am too lazy to even wink my eyes

I am too too too comfortable

Self Esteem

Dear self,

take care yourself more than you take care of someone elses

Yourself is one of important persona you should not overlook at. 

Once you take care this one thing, everything will be coming to your ways. 

So, you thinks it is easy to love ourself

when you are on the lacking side? 

Trust her- It is never easy but if she keep going she will make it somehow.

Before you want a freedom, you need to instill a consistency. which is the hardest things to sustain in your life. 

AT THE MOMENT

Slump

Crawling is hard.Predicting is hard.Waiting is real hard.Storm is never ending wind

NEVER COMPARE

When it comes to hardship,

people are telling you, 

everybody feels the same

when you feel troubled, 

everybody are telling you,

yeah once a time people will feel the trouble in life

All of that are happening without fail

to be part of your life.

I am tired to hear people are saying they are like me

I am tired to always put myself in other people situation

I am tired to reach their standard in order for me to be sad

I am refuse to stay in their circle

Not because of I wanted to run

 But because I want to valued myself more

'I used to think people are the same

but now, not anymore'

ALWAYS FORGIVE YOURSELF

I found it very hard to stay
Not everybody can have it
Well at least not for individuality

Rare from being open
They show what is only good
Which made me thinking

Why show only good when the world had already enough of you?
Why still doing good?

I still don't find any solution yet
But I would rather telling myself
I wont hide my dark side
I will tell the truth
At least to myself
Let's be real
Let's instill forgiveness
Forgive yourself
And do better.

Its been awhile . 

Long time no see peeps.

So Hello from Me

Things get hard lately. I bet everybody goes through it for once.

To live is never easy.

It is your full responsibility.

What's best about it, you can choose to be happy of feel devastated.

If you choose to be happy, 

Then you will take and make everything with optimist thinking.

If not, then there will be hundreds of ways for you to blame your life and fate.

Worst of it. it takes one second to see many ungrateful things in front of you.

I have been there once. I bet everybody does. 

They slowly gain courage and strength to face the world

They just got to learn about world

Which is full of confusion and hardship

One think that you can do to survive,

Is endeavor to everything.

As Allah said in Surah Al Balad Ayat; 4 

'Manusia memang diciptakan untuk berasa susah'

Not to forget janji Allah when He said,

'Dalam kesusahan mesti ada kesenangan'

It means everything to me when I am in despair.

No one could hold you up unless YOU , YOURSELF

So take a deep breath, let go everything, start new for something

Sincerely,

Yeng